I Love you, loved you all along
I miss you, missed you all along
But you don't love
Me the way I love you
Ill cry myself to Sleep
Without you by my side
A Broken Husk of a Man
You're the Heart, the inner piece
That completes me, your Black
What can I do, you scare me so
You're hanging now, the Strangled Heart
Eyes still and lifeless
I would kill myself, Burn my Soul
If you ever finish your attempts.
The Black snow falls, lands in red
Sticks then melts, the heat is too much
I want to love, be theatrical and nice
But you feel alone, out of control
Can't trust, nor accept my gift, The Strangled Heart
Its Black and Blue
The B
It Burns within me
It scars me with its flame
The More it Burns, the more i hate you
The More i need to feed on your flesh
Every Time you touch her, Smile at her
She smiles back and grabs you
I want to kill you more
And the fire grows hotter, Stronger
She knows how i feel
But chooses to lead me on
To flirt and kiss when we are alone
I want too be with her but,
she is hopelessley in love with you
I cant love her openly, betray you so
Your my friend, if you die, i'd die to
Id take a bullet, even more for you.
You are my friend, i cant do this to you
I know her, understand her, her pain
The things she battles daily, and in turn
She's Feeling Suicidal
She's alone with her Pain
She can't get anyone to save her
She's so very alone
I'm the one who can help her
I'm just too far away
I'm stuck in this prison
I'm still feeling her pain
We need to be together
We need to be close
Together we can beat it
Together we can stop it
She's falling now
She's falling to the ground
Her last thought is unknown
To any accept me
I arrived too late
To stop her slow descent
The descent to the floor
The Fiery pits of Hell
I will fall down too
I can't live without her
I need to be with her
Or I die Too….
I Hate people, just everyone
All the Gangsta's, the wannabee's
The 'mainstream' crap that fills the radio
The entire expressionist's, the dicks
The world's beauty is gone
Replaced, Replaced With corporations
Political Ideals, political Correctness
Screwing with society split into groups
Unable to connect with another being
Technology has improved – communication is best
To-bad no one cares, wants to talk
Distrust, paranoia destroying us all
There's nothing we can do
Fucking people, can't connect, can't conform
To a certain group, a random place
To conform to the unconformity's, fucking insane
Can't talk, be different, without
Reinventing Your Inner Being by Emocide, literature
Literature
Reinventing Your Inner Being
It's so awkward now
I can't be around you
The deadly silence that rips my soul
Why are we like this now?
We used to be cool- talk a lot
But conversation fails – I hate myself
You must have seen who I really am
Dug beneath the surface
Don't like what you see
It's not all me…
I carry most blames, but not tonight
For the way I feel about you
Cannot be expressed in mortal words
I'm trying to recover
Rip the ropes from my strangled heart
Nothings going to happen
Sooner I accept this, the better of I'll be
But you're always there, in my dreams
Your beautiful face, your kind words
Tears fall, but the face remains dry
I'm worthles
Sleep, I detest sleep….
It is a natural process that every human has to do, no sleep and you die…. Your conscious shuts down and the unconscious refuses to take over…. Insomnia does kill. But why? Why must I repeat this process every fucking night? The fight, the huge insurmountable losing battle of fending of the incoming and pending doom. Sometime's you can win, for a few nights, maybe a week…. Only with drugs. Sometimes you don't. I hate those nights. Those nights were my spirit finally surrenders to the nightmares. Approx. every three nights… it happens.
There are three parts to sleep, each with its own slow horrible moments. The first
Way to ruin my fucking day
You said it so calmly
As though it was a minor manner
Nothing that would rip up my soul
Just a "by the way" I'm taken
So back the fuck off
Two Fucking weeks ago
That info would have been slightly more appreciated.
I waited for you, remained faithful
Hoping you would come round, accept
I'm not ready, too much shit
Fucking liar, just couldn't say it to my face.
I'm fuck ugly, never liked me.
And to what? Some fuck I've never met
Some dick who was so much fucking better
I don't fucking know anymore
Can't even move my fucking arms
I'm so depressed
Why the fuck? You led me on
Made me fucking wait, why
I want to apologise to you
For what I've said and done
You don't deserve what I've been
And for that I'm sorry
And can only plead forgiveness
But at the same time – burning
Deep within my inner-core
Don't you know? I'm cut up Bad?
But worse than that, I waited
Like a chump, an idiot
I couldn't see through you
Do you know my sacrifices? What I've done?
Kept pure and alone – nothing?
You can't know, cannot
You are not a cruel and heartless bitch
You have feelings and love, just not for me
But I'm still fucked up
It still hurts inside – but to a low intensity
It doesn't burn, just a constant ache
Every time I think of you, an